Even in the Storm...

I've been so busy with school and work these past few weeks that I haven't had time to do what I needed, much less what I wanted. So finding the time to blog has been hard...hence me writing at 1 am when I have to be at work in 5 hours.

So let me start with the past week. I've had two really bad days this past week, one of them being the worst day of my life...and that's putting it mildly. I won't get into details, but I will say that my faith was tested is being tested and I have to constantly remind myself that God's plan is better than anything I could imagine, so why worry? Honestly, it's easier said than done. I found myself questioning God and questioning myself. I was mad at God for a time; I just didn't understand. I think that a lot of us---whether Christians or not---find ourselves that way. Christians question God when things go wrong because we feel like we're entitled to good things and want answers that we feel like he owes us. But here's a heads up; HE DOESN'T OWE US ANYTHING. And unbelievers question God because they just legitimately don't understand why bad things happen. They tend to say that "God allows things to happen" and ultimately yes, He does, but many fail to understand the will of God and the purpose of his will. I learned so much about that this week.

I was broken.
I was hurt.
I was depressed.

But I have an awesome God and he welcomes the broken, the hurt, the depressed, the mourning, the thieves, the murderers, the adulterers, the suicidal, the drug addicts, the alcoholics, the prostitutes.

My God welcomes the SINNER.

And I'm so thankful He does, because I'm a huge sinner. I sin every single day and still He forgives me and gives me grace. I question His will every day and still He wants nothing but the best for me.

He is so amazing.


Things I learned this week:

1. My husband is more supportive and caring than I could have ever imagined. Ever.

2. My timing is not the same as God's timing. (His is better!)

3. Everyone makes mistakes; no one is perfect, even though we expect certain people in certain professions to be.

4. Silence is golden. Soothing. Comforting. It's just gooooood sometimes.

5. True contentment can't be found anywhere, but Christ. (Money, things, cars, jobs, friends, spouses, children, entertainment, successes...NOPE. Been there done that, IT. DOESN'T. WORK.)



"Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is---his good, pleasing and perfect will." Romans 12:2